Two days ago, one of my friends' husband killed himself. It was completely unexpected. I don't know how. I don't know if he was on any medication that had depression as a side effect. I don't know if he was just feeling sad. By all appearances they seemed to be a happy couple with a good life.

 I have had a child die, but I have never had a family member commit suicide before. Death by a body giving out, cancer, or an accident are hard enough as it is. Having someone deliberately choose to take him or herself out of your life...there is no way I can know what she is feeling or going through.

 One of their children is taking it very hard. I can't even imagine the confusion their children must feel. I know if it were me I'd probably be wondering why my daddy didn't love me enough to stay. How can a child understand the sadness that overtakes someone?

 I can understand it from her husband's side. I have been sad enough to think everyone would be better off without me. There is no way to explain the dark pit one falls into during this time period. The self-hatred, the self-doubts, the deep-seated sadness and hopelessness...it's hard for anyone to understand how bad it is unless they have experienced it.

 There is no way to make this better for her other than just being there whether it's to listen, pray, or help out in anyway I can. Since she lives a good distance from me, that help would most likely be financial. If anyone read this, please lift this family up in prayer. They will need any support they can get.