An online friend died last night.
I tried to mend a broken relationship with another friend and was basically told to go die.
My ankle has an ATFL injury, and I'm in an air cast for the next couple of weeks. I can't do anything with the house.
DH still hasn't filed the taxes, and informed me he's leaving for another work trip (which means the whole money issue thing will happen again).
One of the cars broke down, and I'm not sure I have the funds to fix it.
Good thing I had my orange juice.
Wednesday, March 21, 2012
Saturday, March 17, 2012
"Hold, Please."
I feel like I'm on the telephone of life and am on hold. Nothing is getting done.
The kids and I have been sick and/or injured in some way. We get over one thing, and something else starts. I caught a nasty flu bug that lasted over 2 weeks. After that I hurt myself. Then I caught a cold. I can't take anything other than Tylenol or Advil, so I got to suffer through every miserable symptom. A week ago I slipped on the basement stairs and hurt my ankle. I thought it would be okay, but it's not. If it's not better in the next few days, I'll need to have an x-ray just to be sure I didn't crack something.
DH hasn't touched the taxes yet. I mentioned them to him and he said he was missing papers. I thought I had given him the mortgage interest statements, but I hadn't. That was my fault. After finding the papers, and giving them to him, he said he would do the taxes. That was three weeks ago. He still hasn't done them. I don't know if he's just being lazy, or if he suspects something is up.
It's very frustrating for me and the kids, because everything we wanted to have finished by now isn't even started. We are "on hold" and there really isn't anything I can do about it. I believe everything happens for a reason. I have never had that disproved. I can only assume we are being delayed for a reason. I wish I knew what it was.
The kids and I have been sick and/or injured in some way. We get over one thing, and something else starts. I caught a nasty flu bug that lasted over 2 weeks. After that I hurt myself. Then I caught a cold. I can't take anything other than Tylenol or Advil, so I got to suffer through every miserable symptom. A week ago I slipped on the basement stairs and hurt my ankle. I thought it would be okay, but it's not. If it's not better in the next few days, I'll need to have an x-ray just to be sure I didn't crack something.
DH hasn't touched the taxes yet. I mentioned them to him and he said he was missing papers. I thought I had given him the mortgage interest statements, but I hadn't. That was my fault. After finding the papers, and giving them to him, he said he would do the taxes. That was three weeks ago. He still hasn't done them. I don't know if he's just being lazy, or if he suspects something is up.
It's very frustrating for me and the kids, because everything we wanted to have finished by now isn't even started. We are "on hold" and there really isn't anything I can do about it. I believe everything happens for a reason. I have never had that disproved. I can only assume we are being delayed for a reason. I wish I knew what it was.
Sunday, March 4, 2012
...
5 am: DH makes the bed around me waking me up in the process. (He does this every flipping morning)
5:30 am: He uses the blow dryer in the bathroom next to our bedroom. There is no insulation or sound barrier. He never uses the blow dryer - ever.
6 am: He goes outside to get the paper (which he never does), thereby setting the dog off when he comes back in. The dog goes ballistic when DH comes into the house. DH knows this.
6:30 am: He decides to unload the dishwasher - loudly. Our house is small. Our bedroom is like 20 feet, if that, from the kitchen.
6:45 am: I gave up sleeping even though I'd only had 5 hours of sleep. I got up, dressed, came out of the bathroom and he was at his computer desk playing a game. (........) He knew I was up - how could he not? - and didn't bother to make the coffee that only the two of us drink.
The first thing out of his mouth: Was I making too much noise?
As soon as the coffee pot was finished, he had a mug in hand and was pouring himself a cup.
If his goal was to tick me off it worked. I'm trying to figure out what I did to make him go into passive aggressive mode again, but I'm too tired to get my brain to work. At least today I get a grandson fix.
My head is killing me from lack of sleep. Looks like Advil and I will be dancing today.
5:30 am: He uses the blow dryer in the bathroom next to our bedroom. There is no insulation or sound barrier. He never uses the blow dryer - ever.
6 am: He goes outside to get the paper (which he never does), thereby setting the dog off when he comes back in. The dog goes ballistic when DH comes into the house. DH knows this.
6:30 am: He decides to unload the dishwasher - loudly. Our house is small. Our bedroom is like 20 feet, if that, from the kitchen.
6:45 am: I gave up sleeping even though I'd only had 5 hours of sleep. I got up, dressed, came out of the bathroom and he was at his computer desk playing a game. (........) He knew I was up - how could he not? - and didn't bother to make the coffee that only the two of us drink.
The first thing out of his mouth: Was I making too much noise?
As soon as the coffee pot was finished, he had a mug in hand and was pouring himself a cup.
If his goal was to tick me off it worked. I'm trying to figure out what I did to make him go into passive aggressive mode again, but I'm too tired to get my brain to work. At least today I get a grandson fix.
My head is killing me from lack of sleep. Looks like Advil and I will be dancing today.
Saturday, March 3, 2012
Adventures in Depression
This blog entry is close to home. I've felt it many times. This time, however, I'm having trouble coming out on the other side.
http://hyperboleandahalf.blogspot.com/
I'm questioning why I even have this blog or am I writing what I write.
Does anyone really care about my divorce?
People divorce all the time. I'm not special.
Does anyone really care about my relationship with God? It's no different than millions of other people.
Can anything I write help anyone else? I can't even help myself. It's doubtful anyone would find anything I write helpful.
I don't have anything special to say. Anything I have to say has been said by many others who write much better than I do.
I'm questioning a lot of things - but I'm not finding any answers. My self-confidence doesn't even exist at this point in time.
http://hyperboleandahalf.blogspot.com/
I'm questioning why I even have this blog or am I writing what I write.
Does anyone really care about my divorce?
People divorce all the time. I'm not special.
Does anyone really care about my relationship with God? It's no different than millions of other people.
Can anything I write help anyone else? I can't even help myself. It's doubtful anyone would find anything I write helpful.
I don't have anything special to say. Anything I have to say has been said by many others who write much better than I do.
I'm questioning a lot of things - but I'm not finding any answers. My self-confidence doesn't even exist at this point in time.
Cake and Frosting
Who knew how hard it would be to find a cake and frosting recipe that is soy, dairy, egg, msg, and nut free?
It literally took me hours of comparing cake and frosting recipes to decide on two specific ones. The recipe for the yellow cake I got from here, but I used olive oil instead of canola:
http://foodallergies.about.com/od/multiallergenfreerecipes/r/Lemon-Vanilla-Cake.htm
I tweaked a recipe for chocolate butter frosting from my Betty Crocker cookbook:
2 cups of powder sugar
1/3 cup of cocoa
1/3 cup of coconut oil (I used Spectrum which has no coconut smell or flavor)
1 1/2 tsp of vanilla
2-3 tbsp of rice milk
Sift together sugar and cocoa. Mix with the coconut oil. Beat in vanilla and enough milk to make it spreadable.
We'll see how it goes tomorrow. My eldest is coming over with her family to celebrate both our birthdays. She can't have dairy during this pregnancy. I can't have MSG or Soy. My youngest daughter can't have soy. My 1 yo grandson can't have nuts, soy, egg, dairy and certain fruits.
It definitely makes meal planning interesting. :)
It literally took me hours of comparing cake and frosting recipes to decide on two specific ones. The recipe for the yellow cake I got from here, but I used olive oil instead of canola:
http://foodallergies.about.com/od/multiallergenfreerecipes/r/Lemon-Vanilla-Cake.htm
I tweaked a recipe for chocolate butter frosting from my Betty Crocker cookbook:
2 cups of powder sugar
1/3 cup of cocoa
1/3 cup of coconut oil (I used Spectrum which has no coconut smell or flavor)
1 1/2 tsp of vanilla
2-3 tbsp of rice milk
Sift together sugar and cocoa. Mix with the coconut oil. Beat in vanilla and enough milk to make it spreadable.
We'll see how it goes tomorrow. My eldest is coming over with her family to celebrate both our birthdays. She can't have dairy during this pregnancy. I can't have MSG or Soy. My youngest daughter can't have soy. My 1 yo grandson can't have nuts, soy, egg, dairy and certain fruits.
It definitely makes meal planning interesting. :)
Thursday, March 1, 2012
Today...
... is my birthday. Normally, we would get dinner out, but neither my daughter or I can eat out anymore without repercussions. That and we're snowed in.
Snowed in...
On my birthday...
We all need to go shovel and use the snow thrower within the next couple of hours, because we've already gotten a foot of snow.
Now that's some birthday fun right there.
>.>
<.<
That 4 people remembered my birthday is nice. Granted two are family members, but that is still better than last year. Sad to say, I don't think my three children at home realized it yet.
My eldest daughter's is the 12th. Her family is coming over Sunday, and we will celebrate both then.
I had hoped to be single by now or, at least, have papers filed. Neither happened. Life is kind of funny that way. I do believe everything happens for a reason, so I believe there is a reason things keep getting delayed.
Anyhow, I think I'll go make brownies or something.
I'm praying we don't lose power.
Snowed in...
On my birthday...
We all need to go shovel and use the snow thrower within the next couple of hours, because we've already gotten a foot of snow.
Now that's some birthday fun right there.
>.>
<.<
That 4 people remembered my birthday is nice. Granted two are family members, but that is still better than last year. Sad to say, I don't think my three children at home realized it yet.
My eldest daughter's is the 12th. Her family is coming over Sunday, and we will celebrate both then.
I had hoped to be single by now or, at least, have papers filed. Neither happened. Life is kind of funny that way. I do believe everything happens for a reason, so I believe there is a reason things keep getting delayed.
Anyhow, I think I'll go make brownies or something.
I'm praying we don't lose power.
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